Sleepless Nights

From time to time, late at night
I lay me down to sleep and say my prayers
Thankful for stuff and blessings
All warm and snuggled in.

Then my mind cranks up, turns on
To think, ponder and cogitate
Bring up from somewhere hidden
Buried deep down below.

Old hopes and forgotten dreams
Unfulfilled promises
Forgotten loves, sweet hugs and kisses
Plans made and discarded.

Dredged up, dug up, rooted out
Uncovered, unearthed and pulled out
Scooped and gouged out
Swirled around and thrown up.

Pushing and prodding my mind
As I close my eyes tighter
Try to breathe deeper
Counting memories instead of sheep.